Sleepy-Time In Purgatory

I am eating some fruit right now.

Why?

I have violated the first two rules.

Rule the first: Don't f@ck up.

Rule the second: don't f@ck up.

It's not like I did anything dramatically bad like making a bad stock pick and losing all my money.

No.

My weight has been slowly heading north since Halloween.

Like any kind of addict my first knee jerk response is, "It wasn't my fault! I blame it on the ooey-gooey goodness of the holiday." And then were those other bothersome holidays and how can that be my fault? Now? I've been doing a lot of writing and hey that's fairly sedentary so that's not my fault either.

Andy, Andy, Andy...

Denial. Repression. Denial.

Well, that came to an end this morning.

I've been getting crappy-tossing-turning all night sleep for the last few days and Andy needs his sleep. I have limited game and I can't afford to lose the precious little I have from poor sleep.

What does my sleep have to do with my weight?

I have sleep apnea. Apnea is a condition when a person stops breathing for itsy-bitsy mini-seconds during their sleep. This non-breathing is associated with snoring. Apnea is bad. If you wake up several times an hour your REM sleep cycle gets all messed up. REM sleep is when a person dreams and if you don't get enough bad things happen (daytime weariness, agitation, the list of fun goes on).

Apnea gets exacerbated by being overweight. So that 10 lbs I put on over the past few months (it's hard to tell when I'm in my winter clothes) has put me over the tipping point.

I put the evidence together...

Bad sleep.

The scale doesn't lie.

I've been told I was snoring last night (when I'm lighter I don't snore).

So I'm hitting the panic button! Hard.

Part of my Grand Strategy of weight loss is doing the occasional post about it. I'm hoping that this, "Public Statement of Intent" will keep me on track.

The fear will help too. Alot.

To make this process all the more transparent I will list my weight with each post.

Today's weight (drum roll please)...

195

My goal weight is a lithe 180. It's a bit lower than the 185 I started at but I feel 180 is good for my body type.